In his 2015 Grammy award winning Rap Performance titled “I”, Kendrick Lamar writes, “I’ve been dealing with depression ever since an adolescent.”
After learning Kendrick was raised, nurtured and socialized by Emotionally Disturbed, Gun Toting, Drug Peddling, Violent Family and Community Gang Members who criminally deprived Kendrick, his siblings and numerous cousins, as well as as many of their neighborhood friends, elementary and JHS classmates from experiencing a SAFE, loving, caring family and community environment, I recognized Kendrick and I have tread in similar worlds or communities.
Kendrick doing so as a depressed adolescent, me as a often frustrated Brooklyn, NY cop, robbery and murder investigator who before Kendrick was born in 1987, regularly witnessed the Gangsta/Street Culture, aka Culture of Child Abuse, Neglect & Maltreatment primarily responsible for causing children to become depressed, angry, frustrated, and sadly, at times suicidal.
In my experience, depressed children/teens who often resort to committing ‘people and community’ harming anti-social acts that far too often results with their peaceful neighbors experiencing emotional trauma and/or physical injuries (or worse), as well as inviting OUR Criminal or Juvenile Justice Systems to become involved in their lives.
I’d like to share one of my experiences dealing with a teen-child suffering from depression apparently resulting from frustrations and anger he felt toward his mother, the person he believed emotionally abandon and physically neglected him, as well as his siblings.
I am told my writings are not always sensitive. I apologize if my frustrations, anger and disappointment seep into accounts of personally witnessing massive, systemic child abuse, as well as how abuse/neglect/maltreatment adversely impacts the lives of developing newborns, infants, toddlers, children, teens and communities.
I try to honestly, calmly and accurately relate human events I witnessed during the near-dozen years I was trying to protect and PREVENT peaceful Brooklyn residents from being harmed by depressed, angry, neglected, unsupervised teens like young Shawn ‘Jay Z’ Carter, who today is a well known urban storyteller, American recording artist writing and producing POPULAR American music artistry vividly describing most all of the ‘people and community’ harming, anti-social activities I witnessed on a near-daily basis.
I’ve witnessed the muzzle flashes sparking from the barrels of semi-automatic ‘Mack Millis’ Shawn raps about his crew/posse/gang employing to enforce and protect their 24/7 drug peddling operation responsible for offering life-sapping drugs to their depressed, self-harming neighbors regardless of their neighbor’s AGE, emotional or physical condition.
Sadly, almost daily I heard or interviewed concerned neighborhood residents who heard and reported the sounds of semi-automatic gunfire…heart pumping sounds that would make most any reasonably well adjusted person immediately fear for his or her, as well as other people’s safety.
The same type of indiscriminate ‘people and neighborhood’ harming gunfire nine-year-old Miss Jamyla Bolden heard a second before she was killed by gunfire while sitting on her bed completing homework assignments
After responding to a 911 call reporting a theft, I spoke with a victim/storekeeper who detained a child in his mid-teens for attempting to leave his store with FOOD he had not paid for, and when confronted using force attempting to keep the merchandise. In New York this type of behavior is defined as a felony Robbery third degree.
I arrested the juvenile, a resident of the Tompkins Houses located across the street from the shop owner’s place of business, and about a quarter of a mile away from Brooklyn’s Marcy Houses where Shawn ‘Jay Z’ Carter joyously raps about he and his crew/posse/gang using their semi-automatic ‘Mack Millis’ to intimidate their peaceful neighbors, to protect and enforce their 24/7 crack-cocaine drug peddling trade…as well as offering their peaceful neighbors the opportunity to experience emotional trauma, FEAR and REAL concerns for their personal & family’s SAFETY while counting nearby or distant gunshots at bedtime instead of sheep, Gummy Bears or my personal favorite, thatched wooden baskets filled with Newfoundland puppies.
However, the compassionate storekeeper was aware of the kid’s situation, asking that I not go hard on him, he just wanted the kid to stay out of his store.
Risking my career path and reputation within the department and Family Court administration, I charged the kid with misdemeanor Petit Larceny, affording him the opportunity to be released to a parent or legal guardian after I completed processing my young prisoner’s arrest at the precinct station house. Thankfully this bending of the rules did not come back to bite my butt.
I called his mother before speaking with him, when she arrived at the precinct station house I escorted her to the juvenile detention room, where the teen went-off on her, sharply criticizing her for ignoring him, for ignoring his brothers and sisters, blaming his mother for the situation he is in.
The kid, who at the time was approximately the same age as young Tupac Shakur, was in tears as he verbally pummeled his mother, suggesting she did not love any of her children and the only reason she had them was to collect welfare to escape living with her own emotionally ill, “crazy”, drug addicted mother.
I stood there numb, watching one of the most heartbreaking, disturbing, yet insightful moments I witnessed during my young career. The kid had a mental breakdown venting what I assumed were years of built up frustration and disappointment.
Appearing unaffected by her son’s torment and outburst of emotion, his mother did not protest her child’s accusation, nor did she seem concerned about his fragile condition as she left the interview room “for a smoke” while he was still sobbing.
What do I say to this kid?
How do I deal with a depressed, angry, frustrated, emotionally distraught kid who believes he is not loved by his own mother?
What are his perceptions of me as a person responsible for protecting and helping people, yet I can’t help fix his problems, instead I arrested him!!?
This mother who apparently raised an emotionally abused and maltreated child said she was going for a smoke and never returned, abandoning her child, leaving him in the care and custody of the City of New York.
I spent nearly an hour trying to locate her before transporting the distraught kid to a juvenile detention facility, which due to the kid’s emotional state was probably best for both of them at that time.
Not that many are concerned with spending/wasting government money, but this mom’s refusal to love, nurture and accept responsibility her child being released to her custody cost the City of New York four hours of overtime that evening.
Four hours of overtime earned while dealing with a unloved, angry, frustrated, emotionally disturbed child who at fifteen-years-old was charged with a crime because he wanted/needed FOOD to feed himself and the bellies of his NEGLECTED, hungry siblings.
Frankly, that was four hours of OT I could have lived without, though what I gleaned from this experience gave me more insight into the mind of a child born to a woman some people pejoratively characterize as a “Welfare Queen.”
Certainly, I wish I could cure the severe physical ills and emotional trauma experienced by a depressed, neglected child who feels unloved and abandon, however I cannot. Though I can relate my thoughts and opinions for improving the Quality of Life for children born to mothers and/or dads imbued with a “clueless” mindset for raising children, and toward life in general.
Frankly, I believe much like our society has taken meaningful ACTION to educate and protect American people from experiencing the unjust OPPRESSIVE human ignorance we call racism, I believe society needs to craft laws designed to EDUCATE as well as protect and prevent American newborns, infants, toddlers, children and teens from irresponsibly being raised, nurtured, socialized and poorly supervised by a significant number of selfish, immature, apathetic primary maternal caregivers failing to recognize that placing ABOVE ALL ELSE the EMOTIONAL WELL BEING of their child(ren) will most likely result with a fairly or wonderfully happy child maturing into a reasonably responsible teen and adult respecting themselves, their peaceful neighbors and the authority responsible for maintaining peace in all American neighborhoods.
I have no beef with my neighbors building families, HOWEVER, I do have a problem with parents intentionally ignoring their 24/7/365 parental responsibilities to their children, as well as their moral, ethical and societal responsibility-duty-obligation to their neighbors and community to make the emotional and physical well being of their/our nation’s children their HIGHEST priority.
”The Hate U Give Little Infants Fvvks Everyone”* ~Tupac on T.H.U.G. L.I.F.E.
The late Tupac Shakur, a popular American recording artist, urban story teller, admitted street thug and THROUGH NO FAULT OF HIS OWN, a victim of Childhood Abuse, Neglect & Maltreatment was well aware that not only are American kids being UNJUSTLY OPPRESSED, IMPEDED and DEPRIVED from experiencing their full human potential, Tupac realized OUR NATION is being deprived of enjoying the potential achievements offered to ALL Americans by reasonably well adjusted kids maturing into responsible teens and adults who care about the future of OUR Nation.
There is no doubt that prior to leaving us, a depressed, emotionally tormented Tupac Shakur, whose young life and wealth of human potential was taken from him/us by OTHER depressed, angry victims of Childhood Trauma, Abuse & Neglect, intelligently recognized it is time to end “America’s War on Poverty,” correctly renaming our Nation’s expanding social disorder and # ONE HEALTH CRISIS known as CHILDHOOD TRAUMA, to
”America’s War on Childhood Abuse, Neglect & Maltreatment”*
Looking at his body of American artistry, as well as reading and listening to public interviews he shared, I have NO DOUBTS that Tupac and I share a common belief that a RESPONSIBLE, caring, loving society should NOT tolerate people IRRESPONSIBLY introducing newborns, infants, toddlers, children and teens to a childhood fraught with struggle, pain, FEAR, torment, anguish, demeaning government handouts, struggles and uncertainty as a means to escape the dysfunction of their own depressed or emotionally ill primary care-givers.
Society needs to rethink our current policies for offering teen girls and young women free cash and support for them to build small or large families of children who far too often mature into depressed, angry teens and adults responsible for TERRORIZING and causing grief (or worse) for entire American neighborhoods and communities.
I believe a part of the solution for protecting children from criminal and/or “clueless” parenting is to utilize the same camera technologies we are proposing/demanding our police officers use to protect them and the public.
I am hoping when camera technology proves its worth in protecting the public and police officers, as well as identifying officers who require further training or officers who have no business serving the public in a law enforcement capacity, we will use that same technology to protect children by monitoring the common area of homes in which caregivers have established a track record for failing to properly raise, nurture and/or supervise OUR NATION’S most valuable, precious and cherished assets.
A while ago I watched a video that saddened me as well as enlightened me when I learned child welfare investigators test the hair of child abuse victims for “ambient” exposure to drugs.
Holy smokes, the numbers were critical. At the least cameras would expose signs of intoxication in homes identified as requiring extra care to prevent children from being emotionally and or physically harmed.
If you have taken the time to read my thoughts, concerns & opinions, please take the time to learn more about how “Childhood Trauma,” a potentially life-scarring disease and condition known to medical doctors and researchers all around our beautiful tiny blue orb, affects the lives of American kids residing in EVERY American community from coast to coast, including Hawaii and my favorite state, Alaska.
Doctors Ross and Dietz offer insights into how our Early Childhood Development plays a key role in determining the type of individual we mature into.
Robert K. Ross, MD, President and CEO of The California Endowment, addressed inmates at Ironwood State Prison offering a compelling overview of the role that exposure to *Childhood Trauma* plays in the lives of *Emotionally Troubled* and chronically ill American teens and adults.
At 2:12:25 in this documentary about Mafia hit-man and victim of Early Childhood Trauma/Abuse, Richard “The Iceman” Kuklinski, Dr. Park Dietz explains why young Richard most likely developed into a emotionally disturbed, paranoid, cruel, heartless teen and man who did not give a frig about anyone else, including his wife and kids.
*(NY Times May 18, 2015 — Rise in Suicide by Black Children Surprises Researchers)*
Black Women, Suicide, Depression, Self Harm & Mental Health; PSA from Abiola Abrams
Kendrick Lamar Talks About ‘u,’ His Depression & Suicidal Thoughts (Pt. 2) | MTV Video News April 2015
American *(Children’s)* Lives Matter; Take Pride In Parenting; *End Our National Epidemic of Child Abuse and Neglect*; End Community Violence, Police Fear & Educator’s Frustrations
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Originally published at knutesniche.wordpress.com on June 1, 2015.
Take Pride In Parenting; End Our National Epidemic of Child Abuse and Neglect; End Community Violence, Police Fear & Educator’s Frustrations
Robert K. Ross, MD, President and CEO of The California Endowment, gives a compelling overview of the role that exposure to childhood trauma plays in the lives of troubled and chronically ill Americans.
After watching Dr. Ross’ presentation one of the questions all concerned, compassionate Americans should seriously be asking ourselves, our elected, civil, social, community and religious leaders is, “What real substantial changes in our society’s attitude and laws need to occur to prevent Child Abuse and Neglect that often causes young kids to mature into depressed, frustrated, angry, unpredictable, sometimes suicidal teens and adults as a result of experiencing the emotional and/or physical trauma of an abusive childhood?”
Is Jaye DeBlack incorrect about his assessment of many SINGLE MOMS and how they are emotionally harming a substantial population of our nation’s children by irresponsibly building families out of selfishness – instead of caring and love between two committed adult partners?
Sandra Bland Indirectly Speaks About Child Abuse and Neglect Harming Her Quality of Life And Community
Victims of Child Abuse
This video depicts horrific examples of men who were victims of childhood abuse and neglect, conditioning a young teen to embrace ‘The Street’ culture Baltimore Mom of The Year failed to protect her teen son from…not to mention representing the fear peaceful people living and WORKING in the community experience knowing depressed, angry, unpredictable teens and young adults need to vent their angers and frustrations for being introduced to a life of pain and struggle by irresponsible, “living wild” single moms and/or dads.
A little girl, catching a cool breeze from an air conditioning unit in the yard, was blindsided by another child about her same age, who had evidently had some practice with fighting fierce. The small victim wasn’t alone, as there were plenty of nearby witnesses, who could have protected her but didn’t because they were too busy recording the brutal beat down and encouraging it. | Written By Amanda Shea
What I see in this recorded act of criminal child abuse, is adults conditioning children to embrace the cycle of child abuse, child maltreatment and violence passed down from generation to generation by depressed Americans who are content living in the poverty they are primarily responsible for fueling when irresponsibly birthing children from selfishness, instead of the love between two committed adult partners.
Nationally Popular Victims of Early Childhood Abuse and Neglect
Read popular American rapper Tupac Amaru Shakur (Lesane Parish Crooks; June 16, 1971 – September 13, 1996) lyrics to learn about his love-hate relationship with his mom, his great disappointment with his dad, and about Tupac’s frequent suicidal thoughts.
Read about how Tupac’s drug addicted mother accepted proceeds of the harmful anti-social acts Tupac raps/writes about committing against his peaceful neighbors. I have to tell you, reading Tupac’s lyrics brings back a lot memories of the horrific emotional child abuse I witnessed during the nearly twelve year I provided police services to Shawn Carter’s community.
Shawn “Jay Z” Carter (born December 4, 1969) is another victim of child abuse/neglect who raps/writes about the physical harm and fear he caused to his peaceful neighbors and community.
Reading Shawn “Jay Z” Carter describe the pain he caused to his neighbors and community, brought back painful memories, causing me experience much of the same anxiety and pain I experienced from personally witnessing the physical and emotional pain young Shawn Carter caused to individuals as well as an entire housing complex and surrounding neighborhoods.
In 1987, the same year emotionally depressed 2015 Grammy winner Kendrick Lamar was born, songwriter Suzanne Vega wrote a song about child abuse and VICTIM DENIAL that was nominated for a Grammy.
Suzanne nailed it, parents and caregivers do the most horrific things to their kids, yet many kids will defend their abusers, blaming themselves for their “blues,” bruises and injuries before admitting a parent/caretaker harmed them.
“Yes I think I’m okay I walked into the door again
Well, if you ask that’s what I’ll say
And it’s not your business anyway”